it would be so much easier
if this was an onion
I would find the most razory knife
in the history of knives
slice, chop, dice
mince until
the pain liquifies
and tears release
their asphyxiating chokehold
it’s not an onion
it makes an onion
look like a simple
two dimensional
sunny yellow
smiley face sticker
it’s a whirling
dementorish
vortex of soul suck
the daggers of my anger
whetted on how
you disappeared me
from the ranks of humanity
clash steel on steel
clanging against your rage
fired by anguish
fueled in answers
you made up -horrendous-
to questions
you refuse to ask
silent battle
to psychic death
across months and miles
vaporizes –
poofed to cinders
of strangling guilt
by peripheral glimpse
across the room
you stand against
the wall evading
the mustard gas
of my presence
you talk to him
who you despise
spoke of in the
vilest epithets
now preferable
to acknowledging me
you are chewing on
the inside of your lip
unaware that you do
the tell of turmoil
you would never tell
how many times
did I ask what
was wrong?
how far did
you push me away
until I strayed?
set of your jaw
angle of your wrist
telegraphing epics
agonies unresolved
engulf me suffocating
amongst tornadic
self-recrimination
somehow I’ve learned
to live without
breathing
my breath is
back against the wall
stiffly held
tears torment
with mis-timing
“hi, it’s time to cry now
who cares you’re at work”
swallow and stuff
duty carries on
maybe I need to
buy some onions
sharpen my knives
maybe then tears
will cease their
stranglehold
Sometimes, even after you’d peeled back all those layers of that onion, you still won’t end up with ANYTHING that’s valuable to you, except for ALL those tears you’d shed, because that onion is too stimulating to your eyes…
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Vanishing is an impressively cruel trick. 😦 That’s one of my tags.
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Yes. Unfortunately I think I may have used the evanesco spell. I may plagiarize your tag.
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Go right ahead. 🙂
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Thanks!
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Powerful pain.
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Yes very
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Wow, I love this, great writing…
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Thank you!! I appreciate you stopping by
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You’re most welcomed…
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