As Mother – NaPoWriMo 2022 Day 9

When you called my name, I rose – jumped up

during toddler years, ever at

the ready. My heart still leaps

with every summons – bound

o’er distance and time –

to the child still

gently held

inside

you.

Trees in Winter, Siberia

(This piece was prompted by today’s NaPoWriMo prompt, using Adrienne Rich’s “What Kind of Times Are These” as my inspiration)

 

in winter, trees are stark naked, like my truths

when they creak and groan in the howling wind

your ears prick up, fixated and keen

living under them, as you do.

 

I know my truths are hushed, silenced and quashed

shriveled scarlet maple leaves, flaming in shame

peeking, hide and seeking, from their burial spots –

hidden ‘neath the blizzard banks, ‘tween I can’t tell and you won’t ask.

 

it’s funny how I disappear a little more each day

in this wasteland of muzzled testimony,

gagging on marinated bear paws, downed with guzzled vodka

as I wonder how I landed in this Siberia of veritas, right here at home.

 

I am a shadow of myself, disappeared with my truths

lost, until I stumble upon the gathering place, brimming

with diademed women – walkers of the shadowed roads –  who conjure

now the midday sun, glittering experiential jewels, scattered in hilltop shouts.

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Moments

the heft of my longing

breathless stones

of midnight eggplant

hold steaming sway

\ashed magma\

scalding ice moments

press stagnant air

from my butterfly filled breast.

i cradle the dense

amaranthine pining

where belongs

your head.